“And I’m not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You”
When I started this blog almost a year ago, I had one goal: I didn’t want to get a few posts written and then lose interest. I didn’t want to leave this as an unfinished product. I wanted to find some consistency and rhythm in writing. I’ve started writing in personal journals before, and usually I fizzle out after a month or two. I didn’t want that to happen this time.
A couple months in, I started a new school year. I knew I was going to struggle to write once I got busy with classes, so I made myself a more definite goal: I would average two posts a month for my first year. That would bring me to 24 posts in the first year. This is post 24.
I guess I made it! This makes me really happy, because I have had so much fun writing and getting to share with people the things that God is teaching me in life and in school. I was looking for a way to share those ideas, and this blog has been perfect. Thanks to everyone who has been reading!
I want to talk a little bit about the blog itself in this post. The writing process of this blog has been really unique for me, in that the posts are usually a journey. When I write papers for school, I’m usually very structured and systematic, but with this blog I don’t always know where I’m going to end up when I start writing.
It reminds me of the vacations I’ve taken with my family while growing up. We love road trips, and we usually set out on a trip with a few sites in mind that we want to see, but the journey eventually shapes itself. We stop at new places we have never heard of that turn out to be amazing, and every once in a while we may skip a destination that charges more for admission than it is worth. In the end we have a journey that turns out to be better than anything we could have planned with a map and a pencil from our sofa at home.
Writing these posts has been much the same for me. It’s as if I set out on a journey with God with a general direction in mind, but some of the things that I discover on the way surprise me. I’m learning to be sensitive to God’s leading as I write, because I often end up learning something I wasn’t expecting in the process. Usually the path I take to get to the conclusion of my post is not what it was supposed to be when I started.
This may not be the best way to write, but it has been enjoyable for me so far. I think my best posts have been the ones which were the least methodical and the most surprising to me. As Tolkien wrote, “Not all who wander are lost.” I think this applies to me and my blog. I hope I continue to have the freedom to wander as I keep going.
All the same, even as I wander I want to keep a general goal in mind. I’ve been asking myself the same question since I began this blog: what am I writing for? Up to this point, my posts generally had something to do with God or the Bible, but no real strong unifying ties. I realized pretty early on that I wasn’t writing an apologetic blog, nor a blog that was going to deal with too many big issues. My blog has been much more devotional and reflective. The topics cropped up in everyday experiences or in things I read.
One topic has been rising to the forefront in my mind throughout though, and I hope to explore it more as I keep writing: sanctification. What does it look like, how does it happen, when should Christians expect it, why isn’t it more of a norm in Christian experience? Or is it? These are the things I really want to find out, because I want to pursue the kind of perfect love to which Jesus calls us, and I want you to join in my pursuit (or in my wanderings in that general direction.)
I probably won’t ever try to define sanctification, and I probably will never approach it systematically as the textbooks I have read at school have tried to do. I’m really not that good with big $5 Christian words like “sanctification”, “holiness”, or “righteousness”. I have never been able to get my head around these concepts because they always seem abstract, nebulous even. Rather, my posts may just brush the edges of what sanctification looks like or may only look at it from one perspective at a time. Whatever I write about, I want to keep this call that God has given to every one of us, the call to be perfect as he is perfect, near the heart of the future of this blog.
The name of this blog is Kuriakos. I chose it because it refers to someone or something who belongs to the Kurios, the Lord Jesus, and now I think it is a fitting title for the direction I am headed in my writing. Is there a better word to describe someone who is filled with the Holy Spirit, who is pursuing holiness and the losing of themselves in service to Christ?
Probably. But I can’t think of one right now.